Moods & Transitions

I don't quite understand it myself really, but tonight I'm feeling a profound sense of sadness.  Almost a overwhelming feeling of disappointment tagging along for good measure.  I'm not even completely sure what triggered this mood.  It could be a few friends who are sad, some who are angry and others frustrated by the lives.  I know I'm sensitive, but sometimes peoples moods affect me.  It's as if I'm too much in tune with the emotions of others and haven't developed a suitable enough defense system to keep them at bay.   I've been successful at fending the emotions off at times, but tonight it was too much, overload time. 

Sometimes I think the changing of the seasons, generally from Summer to Autumn is a sad period for me.  The short days, longer nights, cooler temperatures, lack of green, migration of songbirds and the passing of time all begin to make their presence known.  I know Fall can be a beautiful time of the year, but in some ways it can feel like a passing.  And, November is the greyest, dreariest month of all, with the only bright moment is a day at the Royal Winter Fair.

Ironically, I was born in the month of September, at the very end of the month, the cusp into October.  You would think I would have more fondness for this time of the year, but as I grow older, that's all it is, another year older and no excitement for the upcoming Season.  Winter!!!